still life

the pause.

the freeze frame.

that weird week between

christmas and new years

(until schedules resume!)

where real time ceases to exist.

if you follow any blogs

then you have surely read about

this anomaly.

or spoke with a friend.

each has their unique take on it.

for some it is a glorious

break from pace

others feel a little lost

wandering aimlessly

some may find it expresses itself

as a continuation

of the previous month...

filled with more malls

more food

more...

finding it hard to

s-l-o-w

down.

each year seems to yield a vastly

different feel for me

none stranger than this

it is reflected in those around me

feeling a little numb

finding we have successfully

exchanged our days

for nights

nights for days

yeah...

can't wait to see how this

effects our school time

our meals have taken

on a time of their own

breakfast at noon

(if we're up by then)

lunch around 3:30

dinner at 9

i could look at it and say

 we are eating

when we're hungry

a good thing

i know...

i'm digging deep for that one.

the only days i can relate to these

are back when we first had

our babies

and my hubby would come

home and i would

proudly announce

i got a shower in today!

and that would be my greatest accomplishment

and somehow

it was enough

i will glean from that experience

we have seen our way

through some tough times

disease

surgeries

death

happy holidays

i will no longer ponder
 the why of this break we're taking

i will be gentle

i will lift a prayer of thanks

for a time well deserved

for this warm

fatherly

outflowing of 

love

wisdom

and strength

for the granting of

still life.