cloudy

warning!

i am in a funky...partly cloudy...

chance of rain kind of mood.

so enter at your own risk.

the weather is reflecting my mood.

or maybe i am a reflection of the weather.

a three day weekend.

yippee!

holding so much promise...

the boys would be busy on a job with dad.

my days were open for...

whatever.

get busy sewing up some of those

projects i've been thinking of...

replenish a depleted stock

for the shop.

i did make two zafus...

that's gotta count for something.

two down...

many to go.

i did practice the guitar.

these days i play to learn

new songs that weren't written by me.

i enjoy it...but at

the same time i feel concerned that

the music in my head has

quieted down.

too busy learning someone else's words...

my brain is clouded with their words...

their melody.

i can't help but feel i need to turn them off

so i can hear again.

books.

calling to be studied...read...explored...

and yet my boys have been

reluctant to fully embrace the adventure.

like their mom, they feel the tug

of other interests

and aren't really fighting it.

listen.

like i said before

it is a hard concept sometimes.

to whom do you listen when your heart

feels like it isn't sure which

direction to take

first?

instead of moving forward

you feel a bit trapped in the blur

wishing for clarity.

today

i will try to respect that wish.

i will focus my energies and

make that wish a goal

with directives

to make it happen.

and...oh...

i will pray.

and i will

listen.